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Captain Sanoguchi
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« Reply #1020 on: 10 May 2008, 01:55:08 » |
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Today... I walked a lot.
I walked home.
When I got home I remembered Irradiated had planned for me and him to go see a movie. So I called his cell, it was turned off, he often forgets to turn it back on, which often cripples our weekend plans. So I decided this time I wouldn't let that ruin our weekend plans.
I walked all the way to Irradiated's house.
On the way he called me, but my phone was on vibrate and I was walking so I kind of didn't notice. Anyway, I got to his house and checked my phone to see what time it was, that was when I noticed he had called me. So instead of doing the normal thing I called his cell, he informed me he'd like to go see a movie on Saturday instead. Yeah, I was a tad bit bummed, so I told him to look outside his front window, and he asked me why. Before I could answer his sister randomly ran out the front door and threw some shoes at me and called me a creepy stalker. Irradiated laughed about it, but he had to agree it was stalkerish to call someone from across the street. So, we made plans to go to a movie tomorrow.
I began walking back towards home, but I decided to take a detour and see what another friend of mine was up to. (I'll just refer to him as Cabby.)
Yeah so, I went to Cabby's house, and instead of just ringing the door bell I called Cabby's cell. I asked him if he wanted to hang out or something, he told me he'd like to but he and his mom were about to go to some fancy lobster place. So, I told him to come outside, and he asked why and said it was a pretty stalkerish thing to say, he came out and we talked for a bit but then I decided to just let 'em go so he could spend some time with his mom.
I then began walking the opposite direction of my house, I wanted to get something to drink.
As I walked toward an area of fast food joints and other assorted buildings I started thinking about where I was in my life. Just earlier that day I had officially become a student at a community college. Once again at 17 I felt old, I started thinking about how I've pretty much wasted most of my teenage years, then I came back to the realization that I really only have two really good friends, and both of them aren't really all that dependable a lot of the time, I mean, they've really come through for me on things sometimes, like just yesterday Irradiated was helping me with my film project when he isn't even in the class, I mean that's cool, but sometimes it just feels like he really doesn't want to hang out with me. I mean this isn't the first time he's canceled plans with me and stuff. Anyway, I was just walking along and stuff, I cheered up a bit thinking about how friends are more about quality and not quantity. I mean I see people with 'friends' who treat them like #####, so I guess I'm pretty good as far as real friends are concerned. I mean and it's not like I just have 2 friends, just 2 people I consider really good friends. I mean I have pleasurable conversation with plenty of different people daily, but I don't really consider them more than High School chums and such. Eventually I arrived at a KFC and just got a large drink, I sat down and sipped on it for awhile thinking about stuff, I finished it, I got a refill, then I left.
So, I finally actually started walking home.
I thought hard about why I felt like I'd wasted my teenage years. I ruled out social events and stuff like that until I finally came to the conclusion that what I really wanted was a little bit of a female companionship. I've never really had an actual girlfriend. I started thinking about how hard it is to actually interact with girls and stuff, so I got a tad bit miffed about the whole thing. I kind of stopped thinking about it because I kept comming to the sad conclusion that women just aren't interested in a dumb, ugly, fat boy with a terrible personality. So yeah, trying not to think about it I noticed something I had noticed many times before, nobody ever walks in this town. I suddenly felt alienated from the rest of those around me. Standing by the busiest road in the county I felt kind of like I was isolated from everyone else going somewhere. I kept walking and I watched all the cars go by, I just felt kind of different. These days nobody walks, except for me.
Yeah, so I'm kind of down about how my day went, I'm not going back to being old, depressed Sano from 2 years ago, I'm just a tad bit on the rainy day side. I'll probably feel better after some sleep or something.
Anyway for those who skipped all this crap, just know that I walked for roughly 4 hours. Walking home everyday really has built up my endurance.
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ASR
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« Reply #1026 on: 10 May 2008, 03:25:34 » |
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Life.
Huh.
Cheer up, man. I've learned that the best thing in life is to find some people who really do care about you and that you know, without doubt, are your friends. I know that's not easy, but once it happens you'll know.
People skills are hard to shape up if you aren't a people person.
My life has been very crazy, but all of a sudden I'm one of the happiest, craziest, and (ego aside) funniest guys around. I'm a character, that's one way to put it.
Up until late Sophomore year, I was extremely shy and quiet. I had switched schools a lot, lost an entire set of friends, been to two military schools and never made any real friends at either... I don't want to go into my personal life because I have tons of secrets I even keep from my best friends, but you could fill in the blanks and sort of figure out what kind of kid I was.
...but all of a sudden, everything changed. It clicked. I decided who I wanted to be, but I never truly defined it to myself. I just knew. I didn't have to be specific. I believe anyone can change who they are, nobody is set in stone, and everyone should be given every chance they get... because my life is a living story of that.
Three years ago I would never talk to a girl without feeling extremely nervous. Now, 3 of my closest friends are girls and it's not even a big deal to me. It takes a while to realize that it's not anything special to be friends with a girl, or at least it did in my rare case. I know that sounds cheesy and lame, but some of you will know what I mean. There's that pathetic awkward stage where girls are like "WHOAH" and it takes some guys longer than others to get past that.
On the male side of things, I've got a group of guys I do everything with now. The goofy stuff we do is goofy stuff I could never live without.
What I'm saying is, never get too down on yourself because you literally never know what's right around the corner. Your life will change for the better as soon as everything clicks and you become okay with who you are.
Everyone cares at least a little bit what other people think about them, but once you figure out who matters and which people you should worry about in particular (the ones closest to you)... you realize that it's okay to care what others think as long as you don't let it BOTHER you. It's only human to want everyone to like you, but you need to remember that you can't please everyone.
Find yourself, be yourself, be okay with the self you found.
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ASR
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« Reply #1033 on: 11 May 2008, 16:32:45 » |
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So, yesterday I went to a local Battle of the Bands at a local park. I'm friends with people across three of the competing bands, so I was partially obligated to stay to watch at least those three. Everyone was there, so I had tons of fun, though. I do mean literally everyone I ever feel any desire to talk to at school.
I was there helping out with the sound, because one of my good friends was the one hired to do all the electronics, so I was sort of behind the scenes some of the time, which felt cool.
One band got disqualified for singing a song about beer. These two ladies hosting the event freaked out and told my friend to cut of all their sound and they flipped out and pulled them off the stage. It sucked, because they were one of the better bands, it was the LAST song in their set. Plus, they had already sang a song with the vocals "SUCK MY ----" and nobody had said anything... but I assume they just didn't hear that.
Afterwards, some friends I met up with there and me decided to finally go see Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I thought it was pretty funny.
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« Reply #1039 on: 14 May 2008, 20:28:17 » |
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At my school, everyone in a Phsyics class gets to go on a trip to Cedar Point at the end of the year. It's usually all Juniors.
Today was the day for them to go this year. They left before school started and were due back around 6.
However, half-way through the school day, a rumor started circulating in the school about how somebody brought hash-brownies on the trip and were caught with them.
I heard about it again later and was told that they were heading back early, which really sucks because I went on the trip last year, and I remember not getting to any of the good rides until after lunch.
It's about 1:30 now and it's pretty much confirmed throughout the school, and this is big news on an otherwise dull day.
During a free moment, I called up my friend who was on the trip and got the full story: some kid brought hash brownies, and another kid ate one and then took an Aderral and had a medical reaction which resulted in him passing out violently. During the 1:30 check-in, they informed every student that they were heading home immediately.
It turns out one of the kids involved was someone I know, and he's most likely going to be expelled. Crazy #####, man.
On the topic of Cedar Point, I'm going the Saturday after next. It will be fun.
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